sometimes
I don’t tell you about
the fear, the hurt, the pain
I lean on silence, which falls in between the
smiling, laughing, hiding
sometimes I don’t say I miss you
you are not mine to miss
too many goodbyes and not enough hellos
are reminders of the uncertainty
sometimes I don’t say I need you
when the storm rages at night
needing is weak, and weakness is vulnerable
and vulnerability is terrifying
sometimes I don’t say anything
letting seconds, minutes, moments slip by
and I fall mute
even though inside, im shouting
and holding on with my heart
sometimes I don’t say I love you
because I fear if I say
it
ill lose you
and never be able to say it again
but, im always saying I love you
in thought, word, and deed
in the moments following
a kiss
a smile
a laugh
a tear
and every moment in between
and the missing, the needing, the wanting, the loving
are there
and everywhere
waiting
and although sometimes I don’t say I love you,
I do.
Welcome to my first foray in poetry, dear readers! I’ve never been one to wax poetic, as it were, but I’ve been more and more inspired lately to try my hand at writing poems. I know basically nothing about this fine art, so any advice or ideas would be greatly appreciated! Special thanks to Chase for some last minute edits!
Happy Tuesday, all! Tune in tomorrow for another round of Stick Figure Movie Review with “The King’s Speech,” starring Geoffrey Rush and Colin Firth!
Miracle on 32nd Street 
Posted by fnkybee on January 18, 2011 at 9:35 am
girlfriend, that was beautiful!
Posted by Tori Nelson on January 18, 2011 at 10:54 am
“but, im always saying I love you
in thought, word, and deed”
AWESOME, missy! Stick Figure Art AND Poetry? You are quite the talented one!
Posted by auntbethany on January 18, 2011 at 1:44 pm
Thanks, Tori! Your words humble me!
Posted by Angelia Sims Hardy on January 18, 2011 at 1:21 pm
I don’t know anything about poetry, but LOVE to read, and this was extra special. I adore the flow, and message.
I think you are definitely a triple threat! Poetry, stories, and stick figure drawings. 🙂
Posted by auntbethany on January 18, 2011 at 1:43 pm
I blush…and bow to the Almighty Camera Master 🙂
Posted by Uncle Lewis on January 18, 2011 at 1:44 pm
A triple threat doesn’t begin to describe bethany. There are lots of beautiful moments in this poem. It causes me to wonder out loud… what can’t you do? It also inspires me to work harder on my own prose. I do have a quill pen just begging for an ink well… honestly didn’t see the d.I.r.t.y until now. The world is beginning to see the wonder and beautythar
Posted by Uncle Lewis on January 18, 2011 at 1:45 pm
Oops… wrong button…
That is bethany
Posted by auntbethany on January 18, 2011 at 10:45 pm
If I ever become a rapper (and I just might), I think I will go by “d.i.r.t.y.”
You are wonderful, through and through. Posts need to be written about you! (See, even THAT rhymed…I’m a poet and I don’t know it!)
Posted by educlaytion on January 18, 2011 at 2:44 pm
From poop flinging ninjas to introspective poetry…
Folks like you and me may have a branding problem when it comes to blogging, but I love that you’ll also just go with what you’re feeling. Nice.
Posted by auntbethany on January 18, 2011 at 10:43 pm
Now, if I could just combine poop flinging ninjas WITH the poetry…
I don’t know why I suddenly dove into poetry, but I felt compelled. An emotion overtook me and I went with it. And, like the saying goes, you can fake emotion…unless you’re pretending to make out with Mila Kunis in a movie with alcohol and Ecstasy around.
Posted by territerri on January 18, 2011 at 4:45 pm
Beautiful… and I’ll bet it strikes a chord with everyone.
Posted by auntbethany on January 18, 2011 at 10:42 pm
Although inspired by personal events, I was trying to keep it pretty neutral for shared understandings. Thanks, Terri!
Posted by Chase McFadden on January 19, 2011 at 6:38 am
Nice waxing. It’s good for a creative mind to flex beyond its comfort level. I like it.
There is a line that reads: “letting second, minutes, moments slip by.” I think it’s a typo with “second,” but actually it might sound really cool to make the whole series singular: “letting second, minute, moment slip by.” Just a thought. You know, me and poetry go way back.
Posted by auntbethany on January 19, 2011 at 9:59 am
Thanks, Chase! I’m glad you caught that error. I shall make a quick edit and give you some credit!
Posted by Tom Baker on January 19, 2011 at 11:47 am
AuntBethany, I would like to feature this poem in either October, November or December on my Poetic License series. Once a month I post great poetry that I find by searching blogs such as yours. If you allow me to use your poem, you will get full credit and a link back to your site.
Three times a year I will also be combining the previous four months into one large magazine style post. If you don’t mind please let me know. If you would like to see an example, the first magazine issue of the last trimester of 2010 was posted on January 6th (http://morningerection.wordpress.com/2011/01/06/the-new-tri-annual-poetic-license-magazine/) with the poems from Sept-Dec of 2010.
Here is the link to the January Poetic License (http://morningerection.wordpress.com/2011/01/03/poetic-license-5/) if you would like to see it before you decide. Thank you for your consideration, regardless of your decision.
Posted by auntbethany on January 19, 2011 at 4:20 pm
Sure, feel free to use it! I must admit, it took me a minute to stop chuckling over your site name (and your email address) before I realized what a great thing you’ve got going here. Please let me know when you decide to use it…October seems so far away! Do you have people lined up until then? Thanks again for stopping by!
Posted by Tom Baker on January 19, 2011 at 6:28 pm
Thank you very much. Your poem will be posted on Oct. 3rd and again in January 2012. October is far away but I do have the other months full and only three spots left in October! I will let you know again as the day approaches.
Posted by auntbethany on January 20, 2011 at 12:29 am
Wow, I’m flattered! I will definitely put something on my site about your poetry collections (maybe a badge or something on my sidebar). Thanks, Tom!
Posted by Nazia on January 20, 2011 at 12:52 am
You see that missing particular person, special moments and precious sentiments are your occupied force to keep you focused and balanced toward particular destination.
A very genuine force that would help you to groom in your tough times and very present help in troubles.This missing sentiment in our heart is sometime act as more powerful than the actual presence of that person or moments and it always trigger us to move ahead in search of it.
Having or approaching your love one is end of your efforts and missing some one seriously is continuous process of struggle and desire of concealed emotions.more moving and energetic !
Any how over all very simple and sensitive poetic expressions.
Posted by auntbethany on January 20, 2011 at 9:50 am
Thanks, Nazia! Nice to see you back around these parts!
Posted by Sherri on January 20, 2011 at 7:23 am
I’d much rather be shown love in the littllest most meaningful ways than have the words said. Although, nice to hear, actions speak louder than words.
B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L
Posted by auntbethany on January 20, 2011 at 9:51 am
Nice to see you back around here, Sherri! T-H-A-N-K-Y-O-U!!!
Posted by Tom Baker on January 20, 2011 at 7:41 am
Thank you very much. I do have a badge/graphic on the Poetic License page if you want to use that. I’m also featuring poetry aside from Poetic License in April for National Poetry month. If you want to submit a poem for that, feel free.
Posted by auntbethany on January 20, 2011 at 9:51 am
I would love to share anything I come up with! I’m very new to poetry, so when I post something else, I’ll let you know!
Posted by Nazia on January 23, 2011 at 10:58 pm
Your innocent latent sentiment of affection is not matching with American living style which I found is more explicit(short lived too) for showing sentiments to others through their body and face gestures.Your poetry lines hint as you have eastern way of expressions for your strong passions to your love one.Although in our urban culture this trend is changing more rapidly than our thoughts but over all our expression of love for others is in same way as you are expressing.
I still remember my childhood time when my father had tried to force my modern , educated,updated but shy mother to express her feeling of love for him through some song or some verbal comments but my mother turning red, always snubbed him that what he was doing in front of his children.We never heard any kind of acknowledgment from her at least in front of us but in mature ages now we realized that her concealed love emotions for her husband and her family are more romantic and deep than our thoughts or more stronger than my father’s demand of that time.Her love is still more consistent, responsible and have more sense of maturity than those who use it as show off style and try to forcibly impose on others for some forced kind of virtual and real relations.
Posted by auntbethany on January 23, 2011 at 11:49 pm
Very true, Nazia!